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--brreezy; its so fressh's Journal
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June 18th,2006
JOY=D
This is the year where we are graduating and yeaaah prettty much were going our seperate ways now, or soon. Who knew that was going so fast and so many problems and happiness that had happened, katherine we knew u bettter=D Ahaha going to miss all these pple, the guys going to the arcade, going to have to stay after school again with these pple with short notice, haha and talking on the phone with alexandra and miranda going to end soon, probably maybee,, umm in august, well orientation on august 23rd. OOH and getting uniform one week before the orientation=D haha, so much pple are going to be there, and taking the school bus to school daily later on haha, at least its not the small ones=D should have switched to another school, woah janelle and i are like in the same situation, well janellle hope ur reaching FMM=D cuz thats the one u really want plus u do live in markham=D haha york region is quite boring these days, only goodness is that wonderland=D well time to finish all my hmwk=D haha wont happen well i'm off this scene for, who knows, fine me somewhere else. Haha back to the MMVA's=D ;
Music: stickwitu-pussycat dolls
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June 15th,2006
little thought before doing my speech
Being through so much these days, this month and the pass month. After all what had happened.. and now were going to be graduatin in 11days and weekends counted. WOW!.. and i thought i was going to be at libermann, instead i'm reaching augustine.. who knew that months can just change so much, who knew that I would know so much, who knew that i was going to change in the pass years?.. i was the shy loney girl.. never talked... quiet.. never going out.. always doing hmwk, the goodie good child, but now, i'm different, cant change it i'm use to it i'm sorry i'm sorry to everyone and everything i've done to you guys, the ones i've hurt, because i understand how it feels too i've been feeling that way practically my whole life, since kindergarden i've known a bunch of you guys we were not tight we were not close we were just classmates that knew each others name and i guess birthday.. now these pass years we've been through tough times. The thin and thick problems we had during all these years,months,weeks,days,hours,minuits and seconds, we had so much every moment of our lives we had so much going through the good the bad, the time we were all laughing at the most stupidest thing of all!..our trip to quebec was so live=D was the best.. we were at gayish places.. we were at a ghetto place to sleep but we enjoyed the whole trip, cuz of the friendship and fun we had, everynight laughing... remember Katherine.. sceaming and confused to us finally that she was afaird of the shower head haha, even thou we all have been through beef, we'll alright now right? and even if we dunt really understand the other class and the grade 7s we are all still intermediates=D as for tharrny... First and last year at ourladyofGrace=D your the funniest person but, lets not steal jhonas job.
A little shoutout here;
Alexandra M. - thanks for being thier for me, didnt really know you much back then even thou u've been with me since grade1=D haha but grade6 grade7 and now grade 8 we got so much closer.. lets not end the friendship and i know i piss you off and everyone else.. but thank you for always being their and be the light the shine down on me. THANKS FOR EVERYTHING=D DUNT LET THE FRIENDSHIP FALL APART. Jhona G. - Ateh J.=D omg.. knew u in grade4 haha 4 years together=D been thru thick and thin seriously.. gone thru so much stuff with you you've been a great friend to me=D and the one who watches over me too. And cares about me as like you were my real sister haha, alexis are you guys sisters? lol NOT EVEN! I'm not even filipino.. lol haha what a stupid bum. haha i'amma miss these moments with you=D, UR THE BEST=D CANT CHANGE IT.. STAYS LIKE THIS FOREVER AND EVER..
Dane C. - DANE!!=D MY CLOSE FRIEND! HAHA wow! lol we like SO TIGHT! and now were going to graduate? haha grade1! omg.. the jokes we had the pple we were hanging out with haha remember the sand under the tree we use to go under and dig haha and then that rock.. someday we should go back their and we should dig it up=D, UR UNIQUE CANT REPLACE THIS FRIENDSHIP
Miranda L. - Haha didnt know u well before until i guess around the end of this year.. maybe in may haha, were like so tight now, were like twins haha remember what u told me what pearl said to you when u went to the washroom today?Haha thats funny, woah! THATS LIKE OMG! haha neexxt were such posers! lol Haha dance group, lol rolls.. haha what fun=D going to miss the fun we have.. haha our hairs lol.WERE LIKE FAMILY HAHA=D TWINS=D GOING TO MISS YOU AS MY UNBLOOD SISTER HAHA
Megan M. - MEGAN! MEGZ LOL haha kindergarden! ur talented singer! ur going to be a famous singer! Going to miss you.. haha the funny times we have in mrs.laurie's class=D lol sitting beside eachother and talking like constantly haha what else can we do? and talk about the guys that we liked haha ... esspecailly in the morning when were the only two other than cristina haha. GOING TO MISS YOU HAVE FUN AT FMM, NOTE ME ON HOT GUYS LOL
Cristina G.- Ur kool and funny going to have to find someone else with that kind of character in highschool =D CRISTINA=D ALWAYS UNIQUE HAHA, HAVE FUN IN HIGHSCHOOL=D , they see you rollin' in the hall haha.. thats gay.
Urszula M. - i know u've beeen thier for me.. at alot of times i appreciate it, lol have fun in maryward with french haha.. GOD BLESS YOU, and see you around=D, keep being art-tisic=D haha dunt know how to spell still haha. GOD BLESS YOU, HAVE FUN WHEN U GO TO TRIPS=D
Janelle V. - Janellle we been thru alot from these pass years ever since we were young now its time that we all go different ways.. and haha ur evil... but i'mma miss you and ur craziness.. haha no one can replace your weird craziness its one of a kind=D, UR ONE OF A KIND EVIL, SMART, AND MUCH MORE ADJECTIVES TO DISCRIBE YOU, KEEP IT=D see you around=D Georjo T. - Hahah ur AWESOME! haha u and ur whie girls haha me and my asian dudes=D haha center island yesterday the plan=D for the coming friday on the 23rd=D wow... lol fights yoo remember in grade7 i threw the pen at ur nose my bad.. haha remember we fought about metromix? lol haha stupid ..and then about pple.. that i like haha.. times were kool=D haha Quebec was funny.. after our dinner u we were standing outside and then we saw the girl haha she was staring at you haha what fun,.. anyway yes.. back to the things we've been though the laughter.. lol cardinal carter yoo =P u never made it dunt worry=D have fun in mary ward=D HOPE U FIND THE PERFECT GIRL HAHA
Kenelm W. - Haha dude , that was a kool and funny how ur best friend harrases alexandra and anoushka haha bad! ANYWAY YEAAH GOING TO MISS HURTING YOU..., ahah kenrick as ur back up wow.. anyway have fun at ward. HAHA HAVE UR LAST FUN ON MAPLE STORY=D
Kadeen L.. - HAHA KADEEN u random person haha dunt take the bus with u nomore=D but have fun at ward.. hopefully you'll transfer to somewhere in markham=D keep in contact=D. TELL ME THE FUNNIEST SHITOF ALL=D Kenrick L. - HAHA U FREAKIN SHORT ASS CHINESE KID LOL woah! now ur like even taller than me.. haha anyway.. keep it cool, stay funny.. see you around=D have fun in highschool.. , UR SUCH A BACKUP lol
Jason L. - HAHA U LIAR! lol u and ur quote...'i' lied" lol haha thats jokes.. even if ur not going to see this ur funny and u and maple story and stuff hahah anyway have fun at ward. U CHINESE MAN.. cya!
,if your not here, dont worry=D, i thank you and appreciaite all the things you all have done for me in all my life.
Music: torn by letoya
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May 31st,2006
still not over you
Whassup? i know we haven't spoken for a while I was thinking bout you and it kinda made me smile So many things to say and I'll put them in a letter Thought it might be easier, the words might come out better
How's your mother? How's your little brother? Does he still look just like you? So many things I wanna know the answers to Wish i could press rewind and rewrite every line to the story of me and you
Don't you know I've tried, I've tried to get you off my mind but it don't get no better as each day go by and I'm lost and confuse I've got nothing to lose hope to hear from you soon... P.S I'm still not over you
Excuse me, I really didn't mean to ramble on there's a lot of feelings that remains since you've been gone I guess you thought that I would've it all behind me but it seems there's always something right there to remind me like a silly joke or something on the TV, boy it ain't easy when I hear our song I get that same old feeling wish I could press rewind, turn back the hands of time and I shouldn't be telling you
Don't you know I've tried, I've tried to get you off my mind but it don't get no better as each day go by and I'm lost and confuse I've got nothing to lose hope to hear from you soon... P.S I'm still not over you (you, still not over you)
Did you know I've kept all of your pictures Don't have the strength to part with them yet Oooh nooo.. tried to erase The way your kisses taste But some things a girl can never forget
Don't you know I've tried, I've tried to get you off my mind but it don't get no better as each day go by and I'm lost and confuse I've got nothing to lose hope to hear from you soon... P.S I'm still not over you Still not over you, see I've tried to forget you Don't you know I've tried, I've tried to get you off my mind but it don't get no better as each day go by and I'm lost and confuse I've got nothing to lose hope to hear from you soon... P.S I'm still not over you
this song reflects on how i feel about him right now.. so hard to let it go.. forget it. but i still like him..
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May 17th,2006
Today was kool=D cept the rain.. and yeaaaah the running sub for relay.. too bad not started.. going to miss that and YESS!! THANK YOU DANE FOR RETURNING=D lol 400 sub=D soo happy!! anyway yess praactise presentation..lunch; recess rained alil.. alright.. played ball with the guys lol SO JOKES I LOVE IT! and then class completed so much hahaha kenelm and georjo was making me get into trouble during grammar.. lol hahaha then yuuup lol watched the movie.. lol and thunder started=/ boooo! then yess after it was rainning and it still is i duun't tink its rainning in my area anymore anyway lol hahah georjo and i were on computer until 5ish and jason and aaron was there and got pizza=D lol lucky bastards! soo yeah time for us to leave aaron and jason stayed at school to babysit=D alright then thats all for now=D me continuing my hmwk=D lol SIX MORE DAYS!
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May 17th,2006
INTO HIM<3
Hahaa i am so into him lol ariza knows it well=D congrates her and aaron... like finally lol aww thats so cute they got together on the day that it was rainning like shit! eww lol jazzy lol remember "it smeells like poo" and today's weather does smell like POO! I agree! lol and enough of editing my livejournal layout now its back to my entries lol hahaa spelt so much today=D went to aunties house not that far from school stayed.. rents came around8ish.. lol and i was still sleeping i was sleeping at 4:30pm ish lol till 9 something lol then yup got on to the highway=D and got home rainning more at my place=/ but FINALLY STOPPED=D lol ahah got home did some hmwk.. ate and watched tv and on msn and still on msn. LOL hahaha then was kinda on the phone with ariza UNTIL SHE HAD TO GO. lol andrew had to do his HAIR again lol hahah and i was like bleh! i don't know and he was on and i am like what the hell. I told ariza wat i was planning to do.. which maybe not pretend i didnt know him=D lol haha AND TRICKS IS STILL GROUNDED AND I HAVE TO ASK HIM AND GABBY QUESTIONS! lol ahaha wonderland with monica samantha and ariza and these other random people on the 21st=D yay! lol then victoria day=D fireworks with fam=D.. lol then off to my trip.. but i am sure going to miss him i hope he knows it cuz its pretty obvious.. cuz yeah! duh! I said sorry to him.. OOH WELL SCREW it! i don't know what else to do anymore=/i give up on this bullshit=D hopefully=D Anyway okk i am tired now=D finally lol ian finally lol alrighty then gnight=D
12121554♥
Music: When will it be me by yasmeen
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May 16th,2006
DAILYY
This is really getting on my nerves.. even tharrny knows it and it is.. like fuckin shit. why are we even dealing with this? uggh! i dunno why.. but everysingle friendship relationship i have with guys.. they dissapear.. later on.. like a while after its just gone.. like you dun't keep in contact with them&yeaah. well anyway hopefully last year=D dun't gotta see that slutty face of hers; hopefully seeing him at track.. sigh** kinda sad that i told him i'll block and delete him cuz its the only way he'll be happy and i'll be sad eeh so whats the point?? screw this. i guess i have enough of that bullshit for a day=D next its school lol pretty much alright.. lol and yeaah grad. stuff to do=D and trip in seven more days and wonderland five more days=D hope the rain ends like soontime before friday=D
Mood: disappointed Music: unfaithful by rihanna
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May 15th,2006
DAILY
TODAY WAS JUST A DAY WITH SO MUCH FUN AND JOKES LAUGHIN EVERYONE! 1st of all i came to school asking who did their math and science blah but yeaaH LOL GOT THROUGH CLASS=D lol haha no one really did it lol ahahaha and then yeaahh recess was jokes.. lol eating on the portable lol then the next thing you know alexis hits joshua white RIGHT ON THE SIDE OF HIS FACE SHITT! thats scary he had like a blood vain popin out shitt! OMG I CAN'T BELIEVE ANYWAY yess..lol hahah so that ended so they and us continued doing our stuff.. during instrumental was alright..., lol mr.d wearin slippers! lol hiliariuos then went for lunch in mlle's room as usally.. lol haha then yup getting ready for recess asked whos in our rooms for our trip kinda bullshit cuz we keep on changing it.. really now it doesn't matter cuz we dun't got beef with eachother=D so went out to recess then was talking and walkin with janelle to the field INCOMES JHONA HITS ME HARD WITH A GODDAMN WATERBOTTLE! had tears! then hitted her back then it ended lol then most of the girls were playing handgames lol haha memories of grade2 how we use to memories these moves and songs lol hahah what fun.. then recess ended then it was litterature and bullshit like that during class tharrny edwin me and kenelm was like all talking lol haha that was jokes me going out with kenelm lol alexandra doesn't know then kadeens pops in lol haha what jokes then kenelm cussed at tharrny lol hahah that was funny tharrny cussed him back so kenelms like i am just a guy lol haha then we had to leave for relay.. finals i guess the teams and that i am sub.. ooh well have to run for starter lol anyway yesss lol haha nexxt! went back to class did grammar lol in french then yess yes yess 10mins gone for grammar lol was in the washroom a bunch of us lol and jhona kept on knocking on the classroom door and running away lmfao ahaha got mlle so pissed off=D lol haha whats new ooh yeahah lol really funny too lazy to name it all then whats next ooh track lol not bad.. couldn't buy icecream cuz my dad came already to pick me up lol laughed so much and dissed pple so much.. OOH WELL LOL then instead got mcdonalds from with dad went home msn didn't work so instead watched tv,ate and did some hmwk lol ahah for practiaclly 1hour lol haha that was funny.. then cousin came over.. went out with him and his gay friend that are close by us lol came to visit my place and talked shit about how its like a farm=/ i know its like a farm but at least the house doesn't look like a barn! lol anyway so they stayed for dinner and they were watching tv in the other room cuz i didn't let them in my room and we couldn't go anywhere else cuz it was pouring! uggh and it still is lol anyway yuup had dinner with them lol 3 teens cooking for 5adults lol haah with the help of my grandma and we just ate pizza and icecream=D then watched the notebook ahah so romantic lol haha cousin and his friend was like completely just eating as i watched it then after a while was back on computer=D and they left and i am bored and tired right now but still doing my livejournal.. then planned about watching a movie and wonderland.=D lol interesting ehh lol haha then he went on unblocked him and added him and then blocked him again.. sent him an e-mail saying its for good i guess this time until something happens.. eek hoping addy is here lol anyway yess lol didn't talk to him guess its like that =D ooh well what ever happens i guess i can floww along=D lol=D and now i am tired! I AM DONE
Music: southside by lloyd ft. Ashanti
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May 14th,2006
BRAAPPZ! 8 MORE DAYS TILL QUEBEC AND ENDING THIS WHOLE FUCKIN RELATIONSHIPS WITH THESE PEOPLE
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May 14th,2006
One wish
I knowthis is a christmas song=/
Dosen't feel right when were apart
and it's even harder now
watchin' the lights shine bright
as the snow falls down
Everybody's rushing home tonight
to be togther
but baby your so far away
so I just had to call you to say
(Chorus)
I don't need a thing
don't need the whitest snow
the tallest tree
just one wish
one wish
that I could be with you this Christmas
I don't need a thing
don't need the brightest star shining over me
just one wish
one wish that I could be with you
this Christmas
Remeber how we were lost in our first kiss
underneath the mistletoe
It was only last year
But now it seems long ago
What I would give
To see your face
To have you near me now
But baby your so far away
So I just had to call you to say
(Chorus)
I don't need a thing
don't need the whitest snow
the tallest tree
just one wish
one wish
that I could be with you this Christmas
I don't need a thing
don't need the brightest star shining over me
just one wish
one wish that I could be with you
this Christmas
And if I have to spend tonite alone
At least I've got you on the phone
And in my heart I feel you here with me
Yeah, yeah, yeah wohohoh
(Chorus)
I don't need a thing
don't need the whitest snow
the tallest tree
just one wish
one wish
that I could be with you this Christmas
I don't need a thing
don't need the brightest star shining over me
just one wish
one wish that I could be with you
this Christmas
Music: One wish by rosette
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May 14th,2006
How can sorry ever mend a broken heart?
How Can Sorry Ever Mend A Broken Heart
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what can i say,
when words cant make it better?
what do i do,
when i cant forgive myself for what ive done?
where can i go
when memories are tearin' me apart
how can sorry ever mend a broken heart?
how can i hope,
when everything is hopeless?
why do i try,
when nothing i can do will bring you back
why do i dry,
my crying eyes when i know the tears will start?
how can sorry ever mend a broken heart?
ohh
you only ever treated me so kind
must of been stupid outta my mind
i let you down one to many times
ohhh
where can i go
when memories are tearin me apart
how can sorry ever mend a broken heart?
oooh
how can i have messed it up so bad?
thrown away everything we had
looked in the mirror dont know who i am
ohh nooo nooo
what can i say
when words cant make it better
what do i do
when i cant forgive myself for what ive done?
where can i go
when memories are tearin' me apart
how can sorry ever mend a broken heart?
oooh
why do i dry,
my crying eyes when i know the tears will start?
oooh
how can sorry ever mend a broken heart?
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Music: How can sorry mend a brokenheart by rosette
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May 14th,2006
I'm So Gone
I'm So Gone
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how can love ever turn to pain
how can you and me and us just change
all the memories we have are stained
i cant take this shit
how'd i ever let it get this bad
messed up any chance we had
thrown ourselves in a house of glass
i just hate this shit (oh oh)
im the one to blame (oh oh)
'cause im the one to stay
i wanna speak without speaking
i wanna cry without weeping
i wanna scream without a sound
im standing here but im so gone
you wanna touch, there's no feeling
you wanna stay so im leaving
end of story, i dont belong
im standing here but im so gone (im so gone)
im so gone (im so gone)]
i cant make up for what you've done
i cant cover up, my heart is numb
cut in two, damage done
i just hate this shit
you've broken up, beggin' me, dont go
but there's something you gotta know
i shoulda done this long ago
i cant take this shit (oh oh)
im the one to blame (oh oh)
'cause im the one to stay
no second chances anymore (ooohhh ooohh)
im already out the door
im standing here but im soo gone
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Music: I'm so gone by Rosette
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May 14th,2006
being with you
When we talking heart to heart
Or Slowly dancing in the dark
Baby i love being with you (i only want to be with you)
You gave me more then you ment (oh yeah)
And you made it to captin of the playoff whoaa
And keeping you all to myself whoaa
Cause i don't want to waste one kiss on anybody else (heyy yeah)
Cause when we talking heart to heart
Slowly dancing in the dark
Boy there's nothing just like being with you
Nights when we walk across the sand
Days when we wake up holding hands
Boy I got nothing planned but being with you (i only want to be with you)
Whenever there's tears in your eyes (even though it's sad, but so soft)
Baby i see you smiling back bit so right
And whenever there's joy on the rug
Don't worry about it, don't think about it, as long as i'm with you
And when i hide myself in your arms of tears
The curtains come back down
Cause when we're talking heart to heart
Slowly dancing in the dark
Boy there is nothing like just being with you
Nights when we walk across the sand
When we wake up holding hands
Boy I got nothing planned but being with you (being with you, im telling you)
You give me just so simply love (yeah,yeah thinking bout you baby)
I'm living in heaven I
everytime I look into your eyes
Cause when were talking heart to heart
Slowly dancing in the dark
Cause boy there's nothing like just being with you
Nights when we walk across the sand
Days when we wake up holding hands
Boy I got nothing planned but being with you
I...Love...Be...With...You...
Nothing likes I walking in the dark
Cause there's nothing like being with you
I...Love...Be...With...You...
Nothing likes I walk up in the dark (oh yeah)
Cause there's nothing like just being with you
Music: being with you by yasmeen
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May 14th,2006
AS i am
As I Am
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Once in your life,
You find someone who, could be the one for you
Maybe once in your life,
This could be my time, I see it in your eyes
But i have seen, lover's dreams
Come crashing down like falling stars
You gotta be so strong, just gotta hold on
To who your are
I will open my door,
Give you my heart and more
But i won't let you change me, or rearrange me
I can only be myself,
Never be someone else,
Your can bend me don't break me,
If you want me then take me,
As I Am.
Oooo uh oh oh woah
Once in my life,
I gave up who i was, in the name of love
Oh, baby once in my life,
I tried to pretend, i'll never do that again
I've seen lover's dreams,
Come crashing down, like falling stars
Cuz if love is real,
Your shouldn't have to conceal,
Who you really are.
I will open my door,
Give you my heart and more
oo no no,
I will only be myself,
Never be someone else,
Dont be a fool no no,
You gotta take me,
As I am
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Music: As i am by yasmeen
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May 14th,2006
FUCKIN PROBLEMS!
As day goes by.. todays mothers day was greeeat=D got mostly what i wanted was awesome saw family friends had a fam jam at my place.. then the next thing you know when going out to eat with mom the 2nd part only my family GOT FUCKIN PISSED OFF BROTHER WAS BEING AN ASSHOLE AND THE NEXT THING YOU KNOW FUCKIN ALEXANDRA IS PISSED OFF! and i am afraid of her EXPLODING cuz of wesley! SHE HAS TO LEAVE IT ALONE! because ITS BEING A PIECE OF SHIT NOW!! uggh lol gay bastard! tried pissing him off doens't work.. ooh WELL MORE PPLE ARE PISSING OFF! uggh! almost days to our trip and this is the bullshit that is happen tears are falling and nothing can help..how much more can i live like this? uggh!FUCKIN RELATIONSHIPS! forget this. uggh! getting more lyrics
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May 14th,2006
why?
WHAT A FAKE NORMAL FACE! i am not happy! i am fuckin sad! FUCK THESE DAYS!
As i am thinking all the time these days whats going to happen during our days in highschool even the people were close with now are going to be in the same highschool as us doesn't mean were going to be follwering them the whole 4years.. so sooner or later we'll be seperated.. but what else can i say.. i mean like i hardly hang out with those people anymore why? i dunno is it really that i dun't feel confortable with some of them? i dun't know i dun't understand it... like on the phone we dun't talk when some people are on.. like today was on the phone with alexandra and wesley told jhona was on the phone then she thinks i am with a different group but instead it was pretty funny with alexandra and wesley.. guess she doesn't really understand the stuff that i am going though and trying to hide it and forget all about it.. soo yup guess so no reason why everyone has to care or know who the fuck you hang with or chat with on the phone.. i was laughing so hard on the phone with alexandra and wesley haven't done that for so long.. lol even blamed alexandra for not calling me or something something weird lol hahaha but yess alexandra searching for the cake or w.e shes making for her mommy tomorrow or later on cuz its mother's day=D well reaching st.Augustine in september.. i can't believe i moved i met new friends and hanged out more i use to don't even do this.. i got my wonderland season pass just gotta reach on the 21st with people to take the picture other than that.. its all kool. cuz yeaah new house new area new friends.. had so much fun at the park like daily!.. school eeh.. grade8 trip looking forward.. true were having a better bond with others but yeaaah its going to dissapear later on the years.. i can't believe we'll be in grade9 in sept. so fast time passes eehh you guys like all of the sudden we're going to reach highschool?! and we got confirmed already?! what?!?! and we picked highschool and courses just needa get our uniforms and go to the orientation and ect. but thats like august and sept, but whatt?!?!? confirmed!! GRADUATION LIKE IN A MONTH! what!! holy shit!!!?!? Going to cry.. and i am seriously going to cry over alot of stuff.. and on friday georjo had to show me the pictures did he.. i shouldn't have asked him for the pictures on his cellphone but what i can't believe these years i've known more and more people and i agree i did change alot i was never like this before i use to be so good and like not swear and like bug about wanting shit and ect. but all of the sudden years changed and..... i've changed... relationships started ended and started again and it keeps on happening!.. and it finally ends but i cant i just can't get them both out of my mind.. i just dun't know how i am like feeling for them.. both of them if i am with one of them i'll still like the other one right?.. i cant decide! why is it like this all of the sudden?? and everything was just perfect in my life before! until these 3years i guess everything changed i've changed.. and i can't change back why? i dun't know i just can't and people say i have a great life? yah right whatever sure i guess its just your point of view.. how you see it.. because some people just don't know whats that background and the past memories that i've gone through; maybe memories taught me stuff so i changed..i use to be just like a mommy's girl and do everything she says.. now i am not.. really like that.. and.. alot more promised her to only colour hair once in grade9 but noope. coloured it like over 3 times already.. and i am not even in grade 9 and i still have my highlights right now.. how can my life be like this? i feel like crying and i know my heart is heartbroken and crying already.. and i am having teardrops going down my cheek.. but i can't livejournal is like a dairy for public and its like a thing that i can express my feelings. He probably deleted and blocked me too. i guess we really meant it, and i can't believe that.. i have to talk to them and stuff.... i can't even open no e-mails now. i just have a feeling that shits are happening!..this year i've been going through sick and really sick times.. i dun't understand why?.. bullshits are and were happening cuz of me.. i do blame myself.. for everything but i can't change anything i wish i could go back in time too but its just that life isn't like that.. sometimes i just wish i would kill myself for what had happen and it was because of the cause of me. and i regret the decisions that i have made these years, months, weeks, days, hours, minuits, and seconds... sometimes i tink about how life would be like when we grow up are we going to be mothers,fathers, grandparents, and a wife, or a husband.. or are we still going to be solo.. or be a player, a slut/whore. and a bitch ; would be rich, poor living on the streets or just an ordinary family i wonder how where would we be living in who would we be with..and think back how it was before how we met.. and then think back on our friendships listening to what hurts the most by monica.. and i am thinking about wats going to happen and the cheats whos going to be famous.. all the people that got and are backstabbing them all the events and news that are happening at school all around us our life how will it continue.. wonderin the future whats going to happen??? i dun't know i wanna know i really wanna know i want both of them back on the computer go on msn and so i can talk to them about how i feel.. even thou i guess they know..but what..?? andrews not always here anymore so no point.. just like everyone else in my life the closest guy friends are gone dissapear.. they found other people around them and they forget about the friendships that they have somewhere else.., i know i left you guess out but i still hang.. but some times they end everything and its ends no more talking and delete every single one memorie with them ; friendships are like relationships.. when it ends it won't be back the same and everything drops between those two people.. and they dun't know how much it hurts.. now i am listening to when the last teardrop falls.. yes it was arizas song.. for her dad.. how come her dad was the one that passed away? and she was so young did God have to really take him away from her that time.. such a hard time for her.. and it was almost her bday too.. but what do you know 2{almost 3} years ago jeffery.. passed away from his family and friends because he got shot because he was just there and was talking to people and he left everyone that knew him espescially his family how they lost a son..all the people that passed away how they never really completed their life and never got to do what they wanted their dream.. they never had a chance to suceed their dream. I dun't wanna really cry like balling! right now! so i am going to end it now..If by anychancethey read it hope they get me,
Mood: sad Music: When will be me by yasmeen
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May 13th,2006
HEEY I AM BACK wow i completly forgot all my songs on the white ipod is sad love song or just love songs! shit! well yeaah tryin to forgot it all the funny times and ect, you get what i mean dun't tink wrong pple.. but the friendship that we had or kinda had. lol well i guess thats the end of it like everytime.. what gives! fuck that.. well i am happy trip's in 9 DAYS!=D yay! mommys day tomorrow=D get back at this soontime=D
Music: when your mad by neyo
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May 13th,2006
PLANNING WONDERLAND WITH SAMANTHA ARIZA AND MONICA!! too bad gabby's going to the states-=/ she won't get the fun! ooh well got season pass so we can reach in the summer=D i hope that everything will be better lol ariza! i did do the dare=D and i did't get his phone number.. but oohh well what if i did get his phone number? its not like i amma go call him and stuff.. lol i am not that crazzy! lol hahaha BRINGING SCHOOL BAG TO WONDERLAND!! lol hahaha and flipflops! lol hahah its like shopping spree at wonderland eeh lol; thats going to be jokes.. sams going to get paid! weelll us paying her "dad" back yeaah right shes going to give it to her dad; haha well yeaah 1more week=D lol then its like fun fun fun fun fun.. lol mommys bday on the 20th=D oohh atehJ's babybro.. Jr.'s going to be baptise pre-congrates JR. and ateh J lol ahha JR. so cute i wanna go see him again some day ahaha OMG UR MOVING LIKE ACROSS FROM MY AREA lol hahaa thats funny.. well yeaah back to wonderland lol planned so much with monica and ariza wat to bring already.. TSK TSK.. ariza's rascist! lol just becuz were asian lol thats jokes.. well yup=D 21st wonderland=D and 22nd Victoria day lol haha aaron its her!!ITS HER DAY!! lol kidding that bitch ehh lol FIREWORKS?? rightt?? is it?? lol haha then early sleeping... pshh were not going to sleep we'll bee sleeping on the bus fuckin 8hours lol haha NOT SITTING NEAR WASHROOM lol but yup=D near the pple were with in class haha alexandra anoushka jason and kenelm lmfao thats funny! and georjo oohh my him and my ipod songs.. ADDICT LOL struggling to pick songs.. dude! its just ike touchpanel lol hahaha that was jokes anyway yeaah haha torture!! kenelm!! lol ahaha I BROKE HIS PEN lol that was jokes! well yeaaah wanna see jason attack anoushka!! YOO!! UR SO MEAN TO HER! lol hahaha then its going to be quiet when we all sleep on the bus and like have our only pillows=D lol thats jokes.. CAN'T WAIT.. 4days gone=D 3 days sleeping over i quebec.. lol and just calling rents' once lmfao but yeaah=D going to miss home sweet home=D at least i can leave it behind eeh ariza!! LOL I BLOCKED AND DELETED HIM JUST TO MAKE HIM HAPPY ; so like yeaah addy!!! its not my problem!!! HES NOT NICE! HES MEAN lol yeah ur ex. ur neighbooour lol like JD hes my neighbooour lol well kinda live like a big across from eachother LUCKY BASTARD! HES NEAR HOUSES AND PARKS AND SHOPPING PLACES! while i am just a house alone.. then like 5mins walk to another house! that BASTARD!! lol can't believe i saw him at bowling and saw him again at the park lol stealing pple's bikes lol STEALING MY ICECREAM! get ur own dude! lol haha ruunning after the icecream truck=D.. whats the other thing lol ahaha TERESA !! MY STALKER IS UR BROTHERS FRIEND!! AAHH! lol that was funny!!! can't believe we met eachother like that ur bro's friend and me lol hes reaching PET wow lol i'llo go and stalk him with u next year=D lol hahaha stealing the ball and calling pple crazy lol remember the basketball net lol haha on the street and pple were like playing when were like screaming SO LOUD AND pple got so pissed at us and asking pple for donations.. lol haha i'll give u a dollar alright=p lol hahah what the fuck was that swearing at us! were so young! lol remember ben lmfao ahahah HEARTBROKEN thats jokes!! lol haha NOOO SHES TAKEN.. lol ben starts crying lmfao the fuck..jokes and then we left=D lol go and get ur dog lol haha NOOO i dun't have a dog thats for blind.. my dogs for dumb! they just stay in the basement and when they go to the washroom the go to the backyard! lol ahaha AND UR LIKE MY DOGS ARE SO SMALL lmfao thats so jokes.. so instead u found a stick and that was ur dog=p then walked around a different neighbourhood lol haha and yuppp went to ur school.. shitt so far from my place lol hahah and watched the guys play basketball and jinxed them so bad lol hahah.
Mood: excited Music: Torn by Letoya
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May 13th,2006
What Hurts the most
Boy, it's been a long time Since the last time I saw you Feels like nothin' changed Since we've been together I must admit that I go crazy for you
And I can see it in your eyes That there's somethin' you want to say to me 'Cause usually right now You'll be holdin' on to me But instead you tell me
Things have changed, they're not the same And recently you found someone that you Decided to dedicate your whole life to And what we had is 'bout to be through
And baby, what hurts the most is letting go I just want you to know that I love you so I know things are different now, you've gone and settled down And I thought for sure you'd always wait me
I'll tell you what hurts the most is I should have took the chance Boy, when you came to me and offered me your hand Silly of me I thought I'll always have your heart I had the chance to have all the love oh, how I'm missing now
I hate that there is someone new Comin' in and takin' my place Doin' the things that we used to do And makin' love to you
And oh, what am I supposed to do It's killin' me 'cause I want you And you should have known my love was true And there's no one else in this world for me but you
But things have changed, they're not the same And recently you found someone that you Decided to dedicate your whole life to And what we had is 'bout to be through
And baby, what hurts the most is letting go I just want you to know that I love you so You know things are different now, you're gonna settle down And I thought for sure you'd always wait for me
I'll tell you what hurts the most is I should have took a chance Boy, when you came to me and offered me your hand Silly of me I thought I'll always have your heart I had the chance to have all your love oh, how I'm missing now
I know that I'm the one to blame for losing you, oh, yeah I really, really wish that I could be happy for you There's just one thing I need you to do Don't you touch her like you used to touch me Don't you love her like you really need me Don't you love her like you used to love me
And baby, what hurts the most is letting go I just want you to know that I love you so But things are different now, you're gonna settle down And I thought for sure you'd always wait me
I'll tell you what hurts the most is I should have took a chance Boy, when you came to me and offered me your hand Silly of me I thought I'll always have your heart I had the chance to have all your love oh, how I'm missing now
What hurts the most is letting go Just to let you know I love you so What hurts the most is letting go Just to let you know I love you so
Mood: blank
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May 12th,2006
I’m sitting here on the phone
Blackberry to my head
Repeating all word you just said
You said it’s getting real
And you don’t know how I feel
You’re falling in love
And now you’re getting scared
(You wanna know)Do I feel the same
I’ll be lying if I said yeah
something we need to address
before you hear me say yes
I’ve been down this road a time or two
So it’s gotta be right for me and you
(So if I fall in love)
You gotta ride for me, like I’ma ride for you
(If I fall in love)
You gotta fight for me, the way I fight for you
(If I fall in love) Fall in love
You gotta hold it down, even when I’m not around
(If I fall in love,in love, in love, in love)
It’s been 3 months, 4 days, 5 seconds till the minute,
But who’s counting?
And I ain’t never ever, not once thought about bouncing
They say you shouldn’t ask questions
you don’t wanna know the answer to
But I’m gon’ answer you
See, I could be in love with you
but you would not believe it
And I could say I love you
When you say it to make things easy
But, I’ve been down this road a time or two
That’s why I only say
What I feel for you
(So if I fall in love)
You gotta ride for me, like I’ma ride for you
(If I fall in love)
You gotta fight for me, the way I fight for you
(If I fall in love) Fall in love
You gotta hold it down, even when I’m not around
(If I fall in love,in love, in love, in love)
boyyy, it’s not that I don’t want to be in love
But my love is stronger than you ever dreamed of
Have you ever had a hundred percent ?
A hundred percent of anything
When you look in my eyes and I don’t reply
I don’t want you to think that I,
I don’t love you, cause I doooooo
You’re just not ready for me to show you,boy
(So if I fall in love)
C’mon Baby
(If I fall in love)
I’ll fight for you and you’ll fight for me
(If I fall in love) If I were to fall in love
I’ll hold it down with you and me girl
(If I fall in love, in love, in love, in love) Love
(So if I fall in love) If I fall in love
Baby tell me (If I fall in love)
Would you be there?
Would you be there baby? Hey
(If I fall in love) If I fall in love again
This time it’s gonna be right
(If I fall in love,in love, in love, in love)
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May 12th,2006
wow!school was alright was jokes in french class lol litterature test we all cheated lol us and our answers haha the had longdistance practise; and yeaah before that at 2.:00 recess had relay.. i am on the team i am a sub? POOR ANOUSHKA OOHH GOOD LUCK TOMORROW=D lol anyway yeaah UGGH IVAN GOT SO PISSED AT ME AND WE HAD AN ARGREMENT! that bastard! OOHH ANYWAY BACK TO LONGDISTANCE... then after finished everything waited for almost 1hour but only 30mins for icecream truck soo was on the phone, listening to ipod.. and recording georjo's singing then we saw thidude with this hunchback on it then while he was walking georjo was like " its hunchbackof notredame" haha well yeaaah saw theicecream truck and BOUGHT IT THEN LEFT=D lol thats all.. anywaay yeaah jhona and i WE'VE BEEN THOUGH SO MUCH AND WERE STILL STRONG OUR FRIENDSHIP but instead jerome.. being mr.bananas... and just because i liked him it was over next thing u know we dun't talk nomore.. and lloyd and i.. blocked and deleted him he probably was joking.. but i guess i took it serious.. well yeaah thats the way.. i am sorry that i did that to you.. that was a great funny conversation before that had happened.. thought he was going to stop me froming doing that but he didnt not my problem. FUCK MAN! USHOULDHAVEAFTERALLWHATYOUSAIDYOUGOTMYBACK! PSSH YEAH RIGHT ANDREW SAID THAT BEFORE.. what happens now? idun't know him either! uggh so pissed just like wesley too.. :'( noo wesley then andrew then jerome the and now lloyd THOSE 3 PPLE I LIKED and i tink still like=/ mostly jerome and lloyd fuck why is it like this yeaah josh too but fuck josh.. i know they look the same eeh ariza lmfao hahaah but yeaaah time to let one of them go i dunno jerome or lloyd FUCKIT!! i ama see them AT POPE IF I REACH!! ooh fuck! well yeaah=D i guess.. i shouldn't unblock and add him back he wanted to be over the stuff so yeaah.
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May 11th,2006
fuck it
Whoa oh oh Ooh hooh No No No
See, I dont know why I liked you so much I gave you all, of my trust I told you, I loved you, now thats all down the drain Ya put me through pain, I wanna let u know how I feel
Fuck what I said it dont mean shit now Fuck the presents might as well throw em out Fuck all those kisses, they didn't mean jack Fuck you, you hoe, I dont want you back
Fuck what I said it dont mean shit now Fuck the presents might as well throw em out Fuck all those kisses they didn't mean jack Fuck you, you hoe, I dont want you back
You thought, you could Keep this shit from me, yeah Ya burnt bitch, I heard the story Ya played me, ya even gave him head Now ya askin for me back Ya just another act, look elsewhere Cuz ya done with me
Fuck what I said it dont mean shit now Fuck the presents might as well throw em out Fuck all those kisses they didn't mean jack Fuck you, you hoe, I dont want you back
Fuck what I said it dont mean shit now Fuck the presents might as well throw em out Fuck all those kisses they didn't mean jack Fuck you, you hoe, I dont want you back
Oh oh Uh huh yeah Oh oh Uh huh yeah Oh oh Uh huh yeah Oh oh Uh huh yeah
Ya questioned, did I care You could ask anyone, I even said Ya were my great one Now its, over, but I do admit I'm sad. It hurts real bad, I cant sweat that, cuz I loved a hoe
Fuck what I said it dont mean shit now Fuck the presents might as well throw em out Fuck all those kisses they didn't mean jack Fuck you, you hoe, I dont want you back
Oh oh Uh huh yeah Oh oh Uh huh yeah Oh oh Uh huh yeah Oh oh Uh huh yeah
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May 11th,2006
ENOUGH CRYING
Cause the sex was good you had my mind and I let you come back every time you were violate & cross the line and you knew that I would be the type to always wait so patiently(thinking) you was coming home to me(well) damn I never heard the keys or felt your tap saying are you sleep (rewind that) Cause the sex was good you had my mind and I let you come back every time you were violating cross the line and you knew that I would be the type to always wait so patiently(thinking) you was coming home to me(well) damn I never heard the keys or felt your tap saying are you sleep
Don't wanna play house no more you so dumb to think that you gonna marry me I got to be out my mind to think I need someone to carry me I've done enough cryin cryin cry(crying cryin cry) It's time to say bye bye bye it's time to do something for me
Time to choose my clothes choose my friends be with my family They been asking girlfriend where you been we aint seen you in weeks Been chasing this fool around thinking he gonna hold me down I would follow his lead thinking I'm gonna be the one he keep around What I needed(not your money) and all that I needed(real commitment) I really couldn't see it (not a real man) You said you be there(in this relatiponship) So many men(these men) think that all a girl(they think)needs is to be sold a dream but I want for real
Don't wanna play house no more you so dumb to think you gonna marry me I got to be out my mind to think I need someone to carry me I've done enough cryin cryin cry(crying cryin cry) It's time to say bye bye bye it's time to do something for me
Dont wanna play house no more you trippin more i'm tired of you playing got me lookin at the front door missing you're missing more to let you play me don't wanna play house no moe no more i'm tired of you playing
I've done enough cryin cryin cry it's time to do something for me
You turned back and back i came running But the simple fact is that you ain't want me done enough lying and crying to myself nothing left to do but move what else can I do but leave I belived that you would marry me but now I gotta breeze I beez with LT when you come to your senses but then it's too late that's alwasy how it be catch me wiht teh B's on the wheels gizeppi's on the hills shoulda marc jacob fe fe bagged me when you had me next to the gladly looked at where you left ff iced me wifed me you ain't goona have me cryin cryin cry cryin cryin cry it's time to say bye bye bye it's time to do something for me
Don't wanna play house no more you so dumb you think you gonna marry me I got to be out my mind to think I need someone to carry me I've done enough cryin cryin cry(crying cryin cry) It's time to say bye bye bye it's time to do something for me
Don't wanna play house no more you so dumb you think you gonna marry me I got to be out my mind to think I need someone to carry me I've done enough cryin cryin cry(crying cryin cry) It's time to say bye bye bye it's time to do something for me for me for me
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